best addiction

i like you.

2011-09-09T01:55:00.002+08:00

but that was long time ago.
now the season have change, so does the feelings.

here it goes

2011-03-28T00:33:00.000+08:00

BACK

2011-02-20T14:28:00.000+08:00

tsk!

2011-02-12T01:32:00.003+08:00

Valentine's Day,
3 more days only.

heart say,

2011-02-07T17:56:00.001+08:00

2011

2011-01-04T00:45:00.002+08:00

i'm lazy to re-type what had happened in my life.
all i know, i wish 2011 is a better year for me.
i will post more when i feel i want too.
please, don't wait for me!
:)

all the way,

2010-09-29T13:54:00.004+08:00

i'm going to fight and stand like a soldier.

i might fail it twice. i might fell for many t i m e s.

but i ain't gonna give up just that easy

cos' i always got a friend to cheer me on !

thanks guys Y

my say,

2010-09-07T03:17:00.004+08:00

how much we keep fighting,

the deeper my feeling towards you.

how much our difference can be,

the more i want to know you.

D Y

you make me know the true love.

it might not be great as romeo & juliet.

but i am sure this feeling is not like others.

very UN-

2010-09-02T07:35:00.002+08:00

i'm so disappointed,

upset, unhappy

with you !

when time comes

2010-08-31T17:59:00.004+08:00

maybe, i am to forgetful.

maybe, i don't even mind at all.

or maybe, i am a foolish girl.

i think you should know how badly;

i don't want to get fight,

and i don't want to cry again.

Just when you think all guys are different again,

someone comes in and proves you wrong.

xoxo.

its over

2010-08-23T23:42:00.002+08:00

i'm tired of lying, fooling, cheating my own feeling.

i can no longer deny this feeling.

i LIKE him.

DATE

2010-08-19T07:05:00.004+08:00

i got a date with noris jie!

we're going shopping for furniture.

yeaaa, at last, i can meet my girlfriend.

ohh, i'm so excited. i just can't wait! haha :DD

*how i wish you were reading this mr D ^^

might

2010-08-18T00:34:00.002+08:00

nightless

2010-08-03T01:25:00.005+08:00

It's 1 am

I can't put my mind to sleep.

All I ever think was YOU.

It's 2 am

I don't know what feeling is this.

It's HURTS.

JOBless

2010-08-01T09:55:00.002+08:00

soon, i will quit my job.

i hope after that i will find better job.

any recommendations?

Again

2010-07-31T00:39:00.001+08:00

I think I might be fall in love again.

life

2010-07-12T14:52:00.001+08:00

i hate you.

but i hate my life more.

not because of unperfection.

it's just so fuck up!

obssesed

2010-07-04T13:26:00.004+08:00

TWILIGHT SAGA ECLIPSE im addicted and in love with the story.

thrist of love

2010-06-28T00:42:00.003+08:00

your silence can kill me.

but i am still a life.

your breath can burn me.

but i am still feel cold.

with you,

i always want more.

should i ?

2010-06-26T01:50:00.005+08:00

i know i should ignore you,

i should forget you, but i did not.

its not because of your looks or wtv.

its just me. i'm going insane.

you will never know cause i'm not telling.

you will never feel cause you're DUMB!

on the brighter note,

i'm happy that we can be this way.

FRIENDS? i supposed.

what hurts

2010-06-20T23:35:00.004+08:00

are you meant for me ?

are we suppose to be together ?

why i keep missing you ?

why should you feel that way too ?

can i trust my feelings ?

can i trust your feelings ?

how sure i am with all of this ?

when will this end ?

can't be yours

2010-06-19T21:49:00.002+08:00

for many times,

i answer your same question,

i give you the same answer and reason.

but yet you still keep asking.

when will it ever get in your DUMB head?

we're meant to be friends.

so much of special

2010-06-19T01:59:00.005+08:00

the ewww' thing still keep coming and flowing out.

not matter, i have blow it out. i keep inhale my inhaler.

i hate when i have to suck it up. so grossssss!

YOU !

i feel disappointed.

you are even worse then my flu :(

i own you.

2010-06-17T01:24:00.005+08:00

i feel sorry and regret.

i should come that 13 june. no matter what, rain or shine.

once again, i have broke my promise.

babe, do you ever regret taking me as your bestfriend?

UPDATE

2010-06-13T21:59:00.002+08:00

all i can say,

you're such a big jerks!

\m/ goodnight.

dead and gone

2010-05-11T10:39:00.005+08:00

i know, i know.

it's been century i have not update my blog.

i am busy with my upcoming exams and outing with my friends.

so, i hope you can excuse me this time.

argh! what the heck.

hahaha :D

WAIT !

i promise. once i am back,

I WILL BE BACK WITH NEW TEMPLATE,

NEW STORY, NEW GOSSIP, NEW PICTURES

AND EVERYTHING THAT'S NEW larh !

DAY IN SCHOOL

2010-04-19T16:17:00.002+08:00

MY SCHOOL COMPUTER SLOW LIKE FUCK !

MY POLO-TEE GET DIRT BY CHOCOLATE WAFFLE !

MY OH MY, IMMA SUCH A COMPLAIN GIRL :)

sickness

2010-04-11T16:13:00.003+08:00

I
GOT
FEVER,
COUGH,
AND EVEN
FLU :)

i am so happy. tomorrow school re-open !

all alone

2010-04-05T02:32:00.001+08:00

When you feel alone, Got no one to hold,
No where to go, I want you to know,
I got your back, Wherever you go

♥ ♥

missed

2010-04-03T11:52:00.002+08:00

i miss my mr two thumbs up !
i guess its over by now ?

eventhough deep down i feel regret making that decision .
but i am satisfy that i know you . i guess i own you a thank you .

a second ago, i remember your laugh .
a minute ago, i touch by your 'caring is sharing' principles .
a hour ago, i love to stare at your eyes .

i let you slip away just like that .
well, i can't help it either .
we're just not meant for each other .

i ever want,

2010-04-02T04:02:00.005+08:00

all i ever want was to love . all i ever did was liked .
all i ever wish was to find happiness .
all i need was hope .

You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.

someone

2010-04-01T01:38:00.001+08:00

Someone quite different to me, I think. I'd like someone who thinks differently to me so that I have more to figure out, more to learn; someone with passion and creativity, someone who might be difficult to get to know at first. I want someone who knows how to give as well as take - a balanced relationship is important, and I couldn't handle having one with someone who doesn't understand what the meaning of 'balanced' is!

I want someone who likes to try new things. Someone with a buzz for adventure, someone who likes to do things differently all the time! Someone who is relatively balanced within themselves; I'd like someone who shares my interests but also has some of their own that we can talk about. Preferably someone who knows themselves. Someone who understands my holding back.

Someone who feels things deeply but doesn't feel the need to talk about it all of the time; someone who is calm, centered but maybe has to let go sometimes and needs to be taken care of once in a while. Someone who'll love me wholly and unconditionally forever; I want them to think I'm beautiful when I first wake up in the morning, someone to hold me and protect me when I feel vulnerable and to be by my side when I need them.

Lastlly, someone who loves me for who i am.

wrong

2010-03-31T02:19:00.002+08:00

Sometimes everything is wrong.

i shouldn't think about maybe or probably he got feeling towards me.
that's totally wrong. argh! i couldn't help myself to like you.

EARTH

2010-03-27T03:42:00.002+08:00

DO SUPPORT IT !

follow me

2010-03-27T00:44:00.001+08:00

once again,
i repeat myself.
i am not active here.
you can add me at facebook.
thank you very much !

the key

2010-03-25T11:31:00.004+08:00

“It’s not usually the big things that come between a couple and make closeness dissipate; it’s the lack of communication on the little things that build, getting bigger and bigger until the relationship starts to fizzle.”

haven't met you

2010-03-18T16:13:00.002+08:00

i am not surprise that not everything lasts.
i have broke my heart so many times.
so i decided to stop searching.
talk to myself in, i talk myself out.
i get all worked out, then i let myself down.

LOVE

upcoming news

2010-03-17T21:28:00.001+08:00

I AM NO LONGER ACTIVE HERE, ty [:
you can find me at facebook!

job is wanted

2010-03-06T12:29:00.001+08:00

i want a new job!
anyone got any recommendation?

two thumbs up!

2010-03-05T12:34:00.002+08:00

i am craving for hot pizza at pizzahut.
i am thirst for pineapple tea the pokka's brand.
when will my lust be satisfy ?

eighteeen larh seyy

2010-03-02T14:12:00.004+08:00

you like to tickle and disturb me.
you never failed to make me smile or laugh.
at times, you can be so crazy and (only tiny whiny) serious.
♥
i am so glad that i meet you :)
i am very SORRY for being a bad bad friend.
i have been neglecting our friendship for quite sometimes.
i cannot help it. i am too busy with school and work.
♥
thank you for your understanding
and the friendship.

♥ happy birthday madi! ♥

i do

2010-02-26T23:50:00.007+08:00

it hurts to the core when your used-to-be close friend start to change literally. i know i have no rights on him. i swear, i do. but he doesn't know that i do care. if you were reading this, i want you to know that i am very disappointed. i do admit that i wasn't there for you always. i wasn't a goodgood friend of yours. i even don't message or meet you up as we used to be. i feel regret when i think all about it. i miss you, friend.

shooooooo

2010-02-24T20:23:00.003+08:00

i feel lost, miserable and angry!

hair-ness

2010-02-23T00:03:00.002+08:00

should i keep my hair long?
you know, its been years that i carry myself with short hair.

now, im planning to keep it long. but it will take months for it to be long.
what should i do now ? keep it long or not ?

ring the bells

2010-02-21T14:55:00.003+08:00

im so not into seeing people wedding. prob, im still going now, only for food.
after all the wedding thingy. i already plan to meet hamka.
again i will slack at his area. somehow i like there better then slack at my area.
i think im done for today. alamak, esok monday. ok la, bye korang!

far away

2010-02-21T00:30:00.003+08:00

i kiss you, intensely, for some extasy, but somehow your lips feel so cold baby
we are perfect, aren't we? in their eyes, only,
but you and I both know the spark has gone

we don't even talking no more
we don't even make love like we did before
we don't even know the reason why it came to be that even though you're with me

-

i'm not refering about you or him. this is just a lyrics from Far Away sing by Jay Sean featured Keisha Buchanan. i'm sure this song will going to hit soon. i love the lyrics. its so couple thing. haha :D to be frank, i'm not in the mood to blog. long story to tell you guys. so i guess, goodbye!

Aqemal Hamka

2010-02-16T12:27:00.003+08:00

i am sorry for being away for so long.
i cannot help it as i always been kidnap by him.
all i can say is that, he's type of friend that i will keep forever.
last but not least. aku rindu shamirah and sakinah !
padan muke, aku kai 50% name penuh korang :D

somehow

2010-02-08T02:55:00.002+08:00

once upon again,
i will celebrate valentine's without a boyfriend :(

-

i am speechless when you smiled at me.
i will be smiling away when you talked to me.
i feel like in 7 cloud when our eyes meet together.
i don't understand why i feel this way. i feel like a fool.

eleven

2010-02-06T12:46:00.003+08:00

one word, one expression
i feel fucked up !

today, topshop will be extending their closing time to 11.
it's only sound good for customer. but ain't for me.
how i wish i have my own transportation, or maybe get a lift from him.
i will very happy not to squeeze in a crowded bus.
i'm so can't wait to turned eighteen :(

now, i'm praying hard that everything will
go smoothly in fitting room. do you know that
i'm sick and tired looking at all the purples door
or keep finding sensor tag? i guess, now you do.

let's shopping

2010-02-04T16:06:00.002+08:00

i need help in fashion. i have no more idea what to add on in my closet :( i am going crazy thinking what to buy. i guess once i get my pay i just knock down to town or any shopping center. urm, sound nice for me. but i scared i might spent all my pay. pfft! i got to save at least 100 bucks from this salary cause i plan to enroll bike. anyone please help me.

what i did

2010-02-01T17:32:00.005+08:00

today mark the day that january is over. yet i am still skipping my last lesson. i don't know what future brings for me if i am still behaving like this. but at the brighter note, i do still come to school :)

by the way up here is my result taken from facebook that call the "Anita psychic". the result have taken me by surprise cause its totally hilarious and wrong. to be frank, i have no idea what to post. i guess that's all then.

last but not least. qeena, if you don't like your dimple. gimme larh, can?

her

2010-01-31T09:47:00.000+08:00

i know i am being random.
but i don't care. i want to say, aku rindu qeena !

breakouts

2010-01-28T21:36:00.006+08:00

first thing, i am terribly worried. there's a lot of acne breakouts start to appear in my face. but my menstruation still not yet come :(

today is not a good day for me. every places i want to go to slack always pack by the 1st year student. well, its not just that. they even irritates me. i really can't stand with them. i swear i can go crazy thinking about this. but i did a pretty job as i still keep my smiling on for the rest of the day. last but not least. get well soon to fadzly & naz !

few days

2010-01-25T16:13:00.001+08:00

one thing i want to post about;
i miss dyno.

friend of mine

2010-01-19T02:26:00.002+08:00

all i can say is that i feel proud when i get to slap his face.
but i am not satisfy. i should give him a real one.
i am totally upset with him !

heart say;

2010-01-19T01:37:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I cry so hard pleading.
Not because of guilty or regret.
Only sick and tired of all the needless beating.

removed

2010-01-11T22:08:00.002+08:00

hello ! i don't think i want to start of with apologies even so i have been not updating my blog. well, i believe my blog is not interesting to read or even popular. therefore, i am going to move on with something else :)

my life at work kind of okay. but i miss the atmosphere at work with my old colleagues. one by one left me there alone. da aku takde member nak gossip-gossip. now i start to re-think whether i should stay a bit longer or get lost as soon as possible.

the reason i have to stay is more then to get lost;

i want to enrol bike. i need money to pay my phone bill. i have to buy new phone. i need money in my hand.

i plan to re-pierce at the center of lips area,
after that i plan to pierce at my back,
i guess last will be my tongue :)
hope my wish come true!

first day

2010-01-04T15:11:00.003+08:00

BACK TO SCHOOL !

all i can say that, i am sleepy. i don't feel well - head feel giddy, back and stomach cramp. but no one know as i still maintain my look :D first lesson was fucked. i already lost with the subject as i late and miss the introduction part or what shit they call larh. lastly, i want to apologise because i skip my second lesson. sorry! i try my best not do it again. good enuf?

i like it when he react that way. even so i don't understand why. am i already like him?

1 jan

2010-01-01T23:36:00.002+08:00

at last, i get to meet my qeena baby. even so our outing kind of plain bored. overall i still feel satisfy. i hope you feel that way too. sorry babe, if i am not a good entertainer :)

2 more days people.

i am counting down for school re-open. i don't know why i feel so anxious. probably, i miss mirah and my classmate so much. i guess, that's all for today.

envy you

2009-12-31T21:30:00.003+08:00

once again, i am celebrating my new year at home. same goes like my previous and previous year. but this year highlights is worsen as i am alone at home. man, its totally sucks! ):

happy new year everyone!

free

2009-12-30T22:27:00.005+08:00

by any chance,
please anyone ask me out ! :)

well, i just need some fresh air, immerse with beautiful scenery and nature. so i able to peace my mind and soul before school re-open. by the way i have finish reading all the twilight saga books. (give a pat on my shoulder) from all the 4 books. i am so loving the last one; breaking dawn. i won't share the reason cause its better for you to read yourself. but i really can't wait for the eclipse movie next year (probably) on june. i hope it will have a lot of action just like the written book. now i am going to end my post by sharing my next year resolution.

i want to be a smoke-free.

stop

2009-12-28T00:48:00.001+08:00

hiatus;
i need a break.

nature

2009-12-23T23:03:00.000+08:00

today kind of better then yesterday or rather worse. but i don't know why i feel akward when i go out with zuu and her friends. its not because of her company. its just me. i feel so tense up.

i don't feel good walking thousand miles to 1 mall to another. its just not last time. where i really love to walk from other end of town to other end. i even feel dejavu out of sudden, even so there's crowds that keep bring me awake to reality.

now, i feel pissed off with myself.

breaking dawn

2009-12-21T21:38:00.005+08:00

i know, i am getting a little obsessed with this. people around me also can't stand with my craziness. well, i can't help it. the book is way to awesome for me to stop reading. now i am only left with breaking dawn to go as i have not yet bought the book - can't help when it keep out of stock. and yeaa, i spent at least 12 hours to read finish for each book. i am not being proud. but i just want to share how crazy i can be. i think you guys should read it up. the book surprise me a lot, specially with the actions (imagine) and answers that i keep asking when i watch twilight and new moon. ohh well, let's skip to something else.

the negative part

when i am getting someone nerve - i totally ignored people message and calls, show tantrums when even people disturb or make noise. i can't help it, i need some quietness when i read. don't you think its more easy to imagine and understand the story well ? i even bring the book to anywhere i go as long i able to read it a few pages. fyi, i nearly want to cry when i can't buy eclipse book.

first my journey i when to lot 1, no esclipse book. i don't why but i feel sad. next westmall, out of stock too. i nearlly want to cry. so, lastlly i when to bukit panjang. at last, i have it in my hand. totally crazy right? :D

last but not least, i am going to delete my tagged a/c. i've no interest with this net anymore. i guess, that's for now. taqqaire my earthlings!

survived

2009-12-18T11:56:00.003+08:00

my last post i talk about my feelings about this guy. i realise that my feeling was nothing much to focus on. its just a confusion. my guts is always turn out to be right. this feeling is only for awhile.

i am staying home today. i need a long rest. my body still feel tired from yesterday working. fyi, our end of season sales just start yesterday. so, can you imagine the crowds will be?
th shop is coathic ; pack with customer. shop floor is messy. a lots of clothes drop & misplace. piles of clothes have not hang up. long queue to cashier counter & fitting room.

but end of the day we hit our target sales and leave 4 piles of clothes un-hang. i think we did a preety well done.

i have no longer strength to be far away from you.

heading strong

2009-12-16T14:50:00.002+08:00

- my heart feel sucks when even i said that they are preety together. i want to stop interact with him. but i uncapable to do it. i scared that i might like him. i hope, this feeling will go away soon. i do not want to destroy my friendship with neither him nor her.

i am pissed off with my Fadlly and Shi Jie. they plan to meet up and go jalan-jalan. they even message me 3/4 days before today itself. now, it all end up nothing but to the drain. i am like wasting my precious 1 day off for nothing.

crazy or what ? i have been watching dozens of dance video in youtube for 2 hours straight. somehow i feel i want to learn dance again. but i don't think i will have time for it ):

miserable

2009-12-09T03:07:00.002+08:00

how i wish i can turn back time -
he just turn 3 months old. but he have already suffer a lot.
i'm sorry baby. i never mean to hurt you. you know how much i love you?
if only i be a little extra careful. i'm sure you will not drown inside the toilet bowl.
i hope you will not hate me if i decided to change for a new one.

wandering what shit i'm talking about ?
i'm talking about my phone ):

your wish

2009-12-04T23:39:00.001+08:00

when, where, how or who will be my other half.
but i guess is better not to be rushing and stressing about this matter.
mama say i have a long route and youth to learn, understand and find it.

-

strike midnight

2009-12-02T03:20:00.004+08:00

i no longer want to believe or dream.
all i want is to be strong and move on.

silence, doesn't mean i am fine.
tears, doesn't mean i am sad.

rotten one

2009-11-28T22:16:00.000+08:00

not yet

2009-11-23T02:21:00.004+08:00

i want to catch this movie. anyone want to join ?

-

to be frankly its hard for me to accept your way.
but yet i am still here because i already fell in love with you.
somehow i hope and wish you feel that way too.
if not the case, i don't think is a need for you to hold on me.

quit

2009-11-19T13:40:00.006+08:00

i feel disappointed.

i never expect to know a guy like him.

i've been wander about quit working

and, i even bring this subject again with mama.

once again she really amaze me with her respond.

but i won't state here as i'm kind of lazy to elaborate on it.

btw who and when in this world say that i want to quit school ?

i won't quit schooling till i have enough of fun and play :D

S.O.S

2009-11-12T14:05:00.008+08:00

right now, i am confused.

i have informed my mum about this

and her respond seem not please.

she said i should give a second thought about quitting.

when i asked why? reason was because now days is hard to find job.

i know her reason is acceptable.

but i am still schooling. i can futher my studies and after graduate

(insya allah) i can find a better job. so now which choice should i take ?

stay or quit ):

to pb

i'm glad that you shared your problem with me. but out of curiosity, do you work to support yourself and even your studies? if yes, maybe you can inform your teacher about this and they might help you out.

don't stress out yourself to hard. i am sure you and i can find the right choice. hear from you soon, aitex(:

precious

2009-11-03T21:55:00.003+08:00

i plan to squeeze my few extra time on shopping with this.

but prob i will watch it alone again ):

i guess my work place soon will be pack with humans.

specially on weekends due to christmas and sales going on.

wa' liao, i am getting stress thinking about this.

more customer + sales = shop close late = tired + no time to study

i think i should quit my job.

i don't want my GPA to be 1.5 only.

slim as model can ?

2009-11-02T13:20:00.003+08:00

okay, i did a lot of ways to reduce weight.

but still i feel that i am gaining weight not losing it.

now, aku stress bangett and sad too.

haixx ):

reason

2009-10-31T01:04:00.003+08:00

i want to be the way i use to be;

where i able to spent time with family and friends.
a good student which never absent.

even so i can quit my job
and, get back to the way i want.

it won't be easy for me.
prob, bcos money is involve with it.

~
i am glad that somebody is back home.
but i am more happier that they are friend back.
i hope both of them will stay that way, hear that?
by the way, hunney who say i never miss you?
and, when will you start blogging again? (",)
i am waiting for it you know.

tired

2009-10-27T12:25:00.004+08:00

i am not being mean.

but that is the only way out.

i am tired repeating my reason to you.

and, end up you will still not understand.

liza

2009-10-26T19:54:00.003+08:00

i've not time to catch this movie ? sobsob )':

LIZA (:
about the tag thing i am fine.
you don't have to be sorry about it.
and i hope isyam will returned home soon
cheer up alrite ! btw do update about isyam once he returned.
hear you soon. taqqaire!

turn back

2009-10-22T15:22:00.004+08:00

i want a long rest from all obstacles.

" i want you to be mine,

even so if earth and sky do not blessed us. "

it has been so long i keep running away from my reality.

but i realised that matters won't wash off easily,

and finding the old me is totally possible.

blackbook

2009-10-20T14:42:00.002+08:00

yeaa, i am getting obsessed with cute baby.

and i think my name soon will be in black book under Mrs L_____ .

the reason is not coming for her lesson like for a month.

maybe, next week i will attend her class as she have give me a last warning.

=.= whateva larhs seyy. i am lazy to entertain her shits.

2009-10-13T20:07:00.004+08:00

i don't want to hear any promises of yours.

it's only full of lies.

" i thought you are the one and only in a million,

but disappointedly. you're one of them "

your ways

2009-10-13T01:22:00.002+08:00

i am not longer holding on to my hopes and wishes,
as i believe i need to make a new better hopes and wishes.

" faith who make us to meet each other.
but it doesn't mean we are meant to be together. "

p.s you scare me whenever you losing your self control.

undone

2009-10-09T16:32:00.004+08:00

i put so much time to figure out that you are no longer belong to me. i put so much effort to move on without you here by my side. you leave me and got me coming undone . but i am glad that you came into my life. now, everything has ended.

hiatus

2009-10-05T12:30:00.001+08:00

i don't feel well.

will be hiatus for awhile.

rusty and dusty

2009-10-01T01:21:00.006+08:00

i want to say thank you to nurhuda othman and ong ziya for visited me at work.
i am sorry if i spell your name wrongly as you know i am not good in memorizing the spelling of people names.
haha :D and ystd accident that most tak perlu dot com is this schoolmate of mine.

me: hello, welcome to topshop.
this guy: heay, budak balestier kan ? (crazy looks)
me: *blurr*
his friends(1): nie bukan topman uh
this guy: dia sama skola nan aku laa.
me: huh? (then) a'ah
(continue) topman will be downstairs. but no worry's theres a (pointing) stairs for you to proceed down.
his friends(2): kan aku btol
me: *smile* (and, i walked away to my another entrance.)

-

isyam.
are you alright?
did i say something that offence you?
if i did, i am very sorry.
i didn't mean too hurt your feelings.
hear from you soon, aitex.

hear me loud

2009-09-26T03:16:00.006+08:00

i am tired as a dying plant.
soon, i will been turning as this horrible face.
-
my life is turning much better.
i hardly believe myself that things change so fast.

but people say don't ever take it for granted.
and, so i lost my way to it.
-

isyam, i know you are being nice. but still i think you shld respect qeena decision. if she still keep thinking about FIB, it's totally her choice. i don't think is fair for qeena. furthermore, its matter of her personal life and feelings. i am sure qeena is mature and big enough to take care of herself and making good choices. whether or not she will get through by forgetting FIB, its totally up to her. as friend we prob or shld accept it. last but not least. don't ever think i am siding her. i am just giving advice and make things clear for you.

qeena, do cheer up ok hunney ! i have been through this before or maybe still. but i believe we, girls, is strong enough. frankly, i am not good in cheering up people. all i can say is that i believe in karma. so, i believe that you will not always be like this and will soon get your happiness with someone. i guess this sorrows r/s is part of maturity. and, i am sure everything that happened has reason in it.

ladies

2009-09-23T02:42:00.002+08:00

i am having much fun taking picture with my loved ones .
i am glad that i able to celebrate my raya's even w/o my dad :D

♥

it's hard to believe ,
when you say you like me .

it's hard to see ,
when you want us to be together .

it's hard to feel ,
when you say you miss me .

it's hard to understand ,
what your love is made of ?

♥

high heels

2009-09-20T22:29:00.003+08:00

i think all i can say is that,
this year celebration ain't like last time .
but well i am fine with it .
and, i have hard time to adjust myself with high heels :D
ok then , i will update again once i am free .

sorry

2009-09-18T11:43:00.003+08:00

hello .
i am sorry for not updating .
well, kind of busy with working and chores at home .

i hope you can understand my situation .
does my reason is reasonable enough for you, isyam ?
and, i am not evil . i don't ignore someone that treat me good .
so please don't be upset ? do cheer up ^^

this few days has been a pleasant time for me .
i don't get trouble , i don't cry and i don't even think about him .
last but not least . Selamat Hari Raya AidilFitri !

addiction

2009-09-15T14:42:00.005+08:00

ain't they cute ?

i love watching them on boys over flowers.

i nearlly spent my 32 hours to watch all their series.

and, yes. i've done watching it all (:

omg. it's hardlly for me to type on the keyboard,

my body is stiff and shaking. *brrrr*

gawshh! when is this class going to end ?

i feel like a dying person in this room. it's too cold !

last but not least,

i'm officially addicted to Lee Min Ho

(Goon Joon Pyo, F4 leader) smile and cuteness.

five alphabet

2009-09-12T00:51:00.004+08:00

it's hurt to even realise or think about it .
why must i be so emotional ?

i guess i am a loser .

every moment i wish it was a very bad nightmare,
a story that i read or a movie that i watch .
i want my old zuraa back .

last but not least,
fuck off laarh to that flirty guy !

hasta la vista baby

2009-09-08T02:12:00.002+08:00

life is a circle journey,
where there's a lot of obstacles.

some take it as a starting,
while others take it as a dead end.

i know i sound weird.
well, i just want to start with a something new,
rather then blabbering about my ex's.

unfortunately,
things couldn't get more worse as dad is now staying back with us.

i know i should be happy,
maybe there's hope for them to be together back.
but no way i am letting that to happened.

you are not here with me,
you never said goodbye.

someone please tell me,
am i wrong to love you?

my inner heart

2009-09-06T19:23:00.004+08:00

it's hard to make any decision right now.
i am emotional confused, shocked and scared.

three words to say,

2009-09-04T02:14:00.002+08:00

how i wish i could change my past.
for sure, i wouldn't accept you as my guy.
i am sure my life will be much peace and calm.

it has been 5 months plus of our break up.
yet, you still keep pestering, stalking, begging, hoping and forcing me.
when is the day you will leave me alone, like forever ?
-
i am sorry if this coming days i might be rough when i say,
have a grumpy look, tend to ignore your present
and easily get irritated about something.

i hopefully it won't happened to anyone.
i am sure you know me well.
so, if it does happened, please do pardon me.
-
this lately, i feel lazy to go to school,
wake up late and sleep after dawn.
i think sooner or later i will turn into zombie :D

guilty

2009-09-03T03:00:00.003+08:00

i'm sorry if i hurt you.
i don't know what's wrong with me
and turned out for me to say that way.
i'm sorry, dyno.

no more

2009-08-31T18:53:00.002+08:00

you're my warmer when i feel cold.
you're my joker when i'm frowning.

you light me up with your care and love.
you bring wanders to my life wish i never ask for more.

but then you've left me.

back then,
i'll cry whenever i miss you,
i'll blame myself when i think the day you left me.
i even hope for your returned.

right now,
it's time for me to move on and accept the reality that there's no longer us.
goodbye syafiq!

i want to wish a happy eighteen birthday to my beloved sister.
i hope her relationship with her bofiee last long.
i love you, sis !

behind the scenes

2009-08-29T02:25:00.004+08:00

i only hope for happiness, courage and love.
am i asking to much ?

the risk

2009-08-27T15:41:00.006+08:00

i can't wait for avatar movie next year summer.
i know i am getting obsessed here.
so, let's move on.
-
even since i start working at topshop.
i notice that few have or just start working will start thinking about quitting.
i know it doesn't affect me in someway or another.
but it make me feel worry and idk why.
-
i vow to myself that i don't want to have someone special yet.
but when i meet a guy that is sweet, nice and fine.
it is so hardly for me to resist not to like.
i hate facing this kind of situation.

people come and goes to our life.
so do love.

but the want who were left behind will feel the outermost pain.
it's bearable to even think.

horrible nightmare

2009-08-24T14:27:00.003+08:00

this cup noodle will be my food to break my fast.

how i wish i'm not working for entire of fasting month.

i hope my work day for today goes on smoothlly.

i wander why i cover my face when i see him ?

am i hated or digusted by his look?

p.s bestie ku got blog la seyy

re-wind

2009-08-23T21:20:00.004+08:00

my eyes hurt of crying over him,
my ears feel sick of recalling all his sweet talk,
my heart in pain when he leave me again.

-

once again,
i failed to forget about him.